Walk out

I wonder,why am I still unable to walk out from that.
It was quite long time,
And I'm having the same feeling.
Whatever la then.
Perhaps I was just back from my hometown,
And I'm not used of it yet.
So when I back from somewhere,
I always have such lonely feeling,
And I need someone to talk to.
I was thinking,how long I never talk with my deep heart.
In university,my friends and I probably just have "surface conversation".
I'm quite enjoy it and I rarely tell them my very personal stuff.
Well,don't know what should I write now.
I just wanted to express out my feeling now.
Seriously,PLEASE !
Let me walk out from it.
I seriously don't want to stay at the same stage again and again.
When feel like I'm walking out but in fact I'm not.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr.....
I'm work hard on that.
Bubyyeeeeeeeee..